我的一辈子。好累哦

Why do I end up here, again? I thought it would never end up like this. But it does.

My first year at college was all fun and happiness. But now I don’t feel connected with my friends, again.

My so-called best friends turn out to be not understanding me at all, as always.

So sure, we are not best friends.

I feel like no matter how hard I try, the good things I do just never get acknowledged as much as the so-called selfish thing that I am moving out.

I just miss my sister, Ms Y. Another INFJ.

My friend denies any coldness or eye evasion.

But my intuition is not as stupid as I am.

I deep down believe that I am sensitive and I do care about building long-lasting relationship.

The reason I am moving out is that I don’t feel the connection and sharing of opinions.

I love study and need stillness.

My friends love talking and stuff.

Just not a good match, simple as that.

Ok, I talked about sacrificing.

Sure, I move out, I got fewer friends, fewer happy moments compared to the time when I am inside the campus.

That’s just true.

And Now I am just tired of everything, of explaining and stuff.

And after that people just say, you are overthinking.

Now I know I am not overthinking, okay.

Don’t make me feel like I am just a careless and selfish girl.

I DO know about my emotions

I am just tired, can’t focus on anything.

And I am sad too.

I feel the distance

I feel the coldness

I am not asking any of you to treat me well

My best friend is now my best friend’s best friend.

Am I jealous? I am not sure, but at least they don’t feel empty when I am not there

And I am not like, leaving forever.

I am not irreplaceable, right?

Just let it be, treat me as normal

Oh or that’s something I don’t have right to ask now

 

Now I understand why I am in the 1% of population.

I hate being misunderstood.

And you all are

I am careless, I don’t understand you guys

But you know what, you don’t understand me too

At all

Not even trying to console me

And I am crying in stillness, again

Haizzzzzz

Kill me

What a long day

I hate running people down

Can’t deny I am doing this

 

I do value my core values, so

Maybe another INFJ is the best

Will I ever getting in this situation again?

 

I am losing a lot,

For my freedom

Ready to go

Thanks for giving a reason to

 

From now on, Emily will be strong

But wait

Not for today

I am just feeling so much guilty

What’s wrong with you, girl

 

I need a psychologist

I need a lover now

Who KNOWS me

 

Ms Y, you are the only one who supports my going out

I am not saying that to blame you if things ever go wrong

It’s just that I want to say thankyou

And I know, I’m fully responsible for this

Thanks for giving the courage to do what I think is just in time for me

 

I’m not that important to you guys, so don’t miss me

Just live and let live

Why make me cry like this

I am really out of breath now

Really want a sleep but can’t stop thinking

 

Now I just have to believe in myself

When nobody else does

 

Funny me

Life was never easy as it seems

For a sensitive girl

I detest being sensitive

Mom, why can’t you just bear me on a hot Summer day

Man,

C’on girl

You are crazy

Yes, I am

The fact that I am talking to my best friend – word

Is a stupid but soul-relieving action

I am in love with the shape of you

Ah no

The versatility of you

 

Oh kill me

Bad girl

Can’t now matter how hard I try

I am just a person who lives so innately

Emotions get over me so well

I just got one friend that I want to talk to now

But can’t just open messenger to answer to others

Just not in the mood

So wait until tomorrow

Hopefully I can get to her

寂寞的我好需要安慰呢。真的好累哦,为什么我的生活这么难过,这么折磨,这么悲哀。

谢谢我懂你的朋友。我不需要更多的朋友,只要一个人懂我,听我说无聊的话,对我说实施的话。

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